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How I Cured Morgellons
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6/25/2013 2:32:38 PM | Hello Fellow Warriors, It's been some time since my last post and that has been purposeful. I always say that when the spirit guides me to post, I will. So I feel the gentle nudging... The beginning of this year was extremely emotionally taxing. Been examining my childhood, a long time friend was killed, an extremely toxic relationship came to an end, ended a couple of friendship, working on myself, examining myself and staying in reality as much as possible. CLEARING out of the old, so that the new has a healthy place to take root. There has been so much stuff happening, that I have said, 'ok God enough, I'm tired. Really God, Really?' I get angry, bounce of the walls, or cry, or meditate or just lay down and shut it all down. Clearing or cleaning out the old is never easy, if it was we would all do it, not just in pieces but do it completely and be done with it. It's kinda like Morgellon's, the purging was so bad at one point I wanted to drop a nuclear bomb in my body and just be done with it. But my body wouldn't be able to handle that level of die off. In trying to kill the organisms, I would kill myself. Well, that's not a viable solution. And so when the Sh@T is hitting the fan, one after another after another, it is the same. The clearing is happening in stages. Sometimes the stages come pretty quickly and can take your breath away. But that just means you can handle that level of clearing, you're getting better... I silently peak into the forum every now and then and listen to the conference calls. I am glad to hear that so many people are embracing at least part of the process. Yes getting well is important, but there is so much more to it than that, as I discovered long ago. I can be free of illness, disease and sickness but if my mental, emotional and spiritual life are still sick, how well am I really? Becoming mentally, emotionally and spiritually well, aware and conscious takes a lot longer than it does to be free of yeast, parasites and fungus. The negative energy, vibrations, actions and thoughts become part of us, we are comfortable with them, justify them and identify with them and not even realize it. Fear is something I still hear a lot. We all come here because we are afraid and we are looking for answers. Some will be too fearful to try the protocol. Some will use fear as their motivator to get on the protocol. The thing is, fear can never be the basis of wellness. Fear is a dark energy that only eats away at you. You think you are using fear but fear is always using you, consuming you. Light, love, understanding, awareness - that gives you a sure footing into this journey. I remember being so afraid, afraid of my body, afraid of food, afraid of everything around me. It' was exhausting! Fear feeds the toxicity in your body and keeps you toxic, mind, body and SPIRIT. Fear is a hungry dark spirit that never is quenched, it wants you weak, it wants you dead. The way to combat this fear, is to start seeing and understanding what is going on with you. Not just the physical you but the WHOLE you. Sickness does not start on a physical level, it starts out SPIRITUALLY. I realized that until I was willing to address me on every level, I was just a sitting duck, waiting for something else to invade me. Today it's yeast, parasites and fungus, tomorrow? Um, I don't think so. To be sure, this is not easy (even though we can make it a lot harder than it has to be). You will crawl, you will stand you will need to hold onto things to get your balance, you will fall and eventually you will walk. How is that possible if fear is the core of your being? I have been in my spiritual 'cave' so to speak. I keep wanting to come out and bam! something happens to remind me, 'you're not ready yet.' My butt hits the floor and I go crawling back into my cave. People, relationships and situations constantly try to pull me out of this space. Or my own head will try and pull me out of this space. And I constantly will be quickly reminded, not yet. I have had to tell many people, to back off or minimize or eliminate them from my life. The clearing takes on many forms, not just physical. Do people understand? No. They try to figure it out, make their own assumptions and come to their own conclusions. At this point I stop caring about what other people think is or isn't going on with me. All I know is I am doing the work and if they truly were doing the work on themselves, first all of they wouldn't have time to try to figure me out and they would understand my journey. So here is where I am for today. Still purging but not like a sash quash or like I am carrying 4 kittens around in my pockets. Diabetes - non existent. Cholesterol - normal. Allergies, asthma and bronchitis nearly gone. Weight - 145-150 (down from 240-250). Fibro and chronic fatigue still acting up. Still adjusting, adjusting, adjusting...and dealing with deeper underlying issues. Life doesn't stop because we are ill. Life doesn't stop because we are tired and afraid. This is not a battle or fight. There is a flow, a knowing. I am in the river of life and here I am trying to battle to get upstream, fight and struggle. I want to get to where I think I should be. My life is chaotic (or parts of it), I'm unhappy, then I get sick. But maybe, if I go with the flow and allow God to take me where he wants me to go, I can stop struggling, stop wearing myself out and even enjoy the journey to a place better than I imagined. That is what TRUE faith is really about, listening to hear the message and then allowing God to lead you on the journey that is best for you, then DOING it and not resisting - even though you don't have a clue (yet) how to get there or what to do. I send you all love, light and peace. |
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