Jeremy
3/25/2015
9:47:49 PM | Today is my second day on the protocol. I decided it would be easier to keep track of my progress if I started on a Monday.
I have had little symptoms lately with the diet. A lot of twitching but ive read that that subsides. I still get "bites" sometime but rarely. The crawling has lessened,too.
Energy for me has been my biggest challenge. Today i had a massive brain shutdown. All of a sudden it felt like my brain no longer wanted to work and so i wasn't on it as a server.
I explained to one of my managers that i am ill and im doing the best i can under the circumstances . He said it sounded like an excuse. (I don't blame him or have bad feelings toward him. But i did have
have to go to the breakroom to cry.
There is this expectation to be the same super energetic, bubbly person people once knew. And it really hurts when i cant meet that expectation for people or myself sometimes. It was nice to cry though. It helped me let that hurt go.
I'm going to get tested for lyme disease. Once i get those results im going to give them to my work. I don't think id get fired, but i do think itll help in the long run if more issues arise from my illness. Its def a precaution.
My workmates may not understand what im pushing through right now... So i remind myself to send them love and keep moving forward. Ultimately i am super proud of myself. No one can take that away from me. Im also proud of my body. Its really doing all it can to make me heal. I feel it fighting and winning.
Morgellons is not a punishment. It's showing me what kind of person i truly am. And the power i have, even in a sickly body, is pretty magical.
People might not understand--sometimes they may judge me harshly. but im learning that it's okay. If i continue to believe in myself, all is possible. I will get better.
Hug,
Jeremy
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