Nichole
9/20/2009
12:29:38 PM | Hi guys I thank you again for your words of wisdom. I am trying very hard to be strong in this situation but my child's father has recently left me and now i am completely alone in this because this pregnancy was very unexpected for both he and I. And he made it very clear to me that he does not want this baby. So now I do not know how I am feeling anymore its like I cant even tell my up from down to be honest because raising a child ALONE with the possibility of the child having this undiagnosed illness called morgellons just hurts my heart. like what if the doctors dont know what to do for him or her at birth if something is wrong. that just scares more than anything else. And with me being fresh out of college with no job and very little money I dont think I can handle all of these obstacles that are in front of me. Its as if every odd in the entire world is up against me and this baby at the moment and I just feel so lost. Ive reached out to the doctor you referred me too and unfortunately we keep missing each other. She seemed very nice however and very eager to help me on the voicemail she left so that made me feel good but we haven't been able to have a discussion just yet. This child is very special to me but I just dont know if I can go through with this anymore. I am so afraid. |
