Nikki
9/12/2009
4:21:36 PM | Thank you to you all. My name is Nichole. I live in the Brooklyn New York area. I am so afraid to give birth to a new born baby who will have to suffer in constant pain as we all have experienced since contracting this disease. There are no words to describe how that would make me feel. The guilt has gotten so bad that last night I had a dream that I delivered a baby who was very close to death at instance of birth. It left me in a state of sheer terror. So I Desperately need everyones support because I want this baby to have a chance at having a normal life but i just don't know if that's even possible with me being so late in the stage that I am. Please help I am so afraid an lonely as no one in the entire world knows about me having this dreadful disease. not one soul as I have no obvious symtpoms (itching biting crawling sensations neurological symptoms headaches deep tissue pain electric shock type pain on joints constant muscle twitching would be the only way to tell if someone is touching me for a Long period of time Which I always avoid but thankfully there are no fibers or lesions just don't know how long this stage will last) right now you all are the only sense of family I have. Thank you so much for your words of encouragement and glimpses of hope. I currently have aspirations of taking my fairly successful music career as a singer/songwriter much further in order to raise awareness about morgellons. so with your help an the grace of God together I know we can heal oursleves. Thank you again. |
