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4/5/2014 1:32:14 AM | Seeing the below posts made my night! Thank you so much guys, you really just gave me the biggest smile and boost of support that I needed! I'e been doing everything all of the same... I have less energy lately SO I've been eating more raw veggies rather than cooking or baking. I've been pretty sad lately. Cancer took one of my childhood friends away from me last night, she passed away only a year after her mother. I'm a bit withdrawn but she was a fighter for years! It hit home for me, my heart ached, but she reminded me of never giving up until the very end. If she can deal with that for years and keep that smile on her face and be strong even when passing, then I will fight for her and be a warrior just like her. She wouldn't want me to give up, I know she didn't give up the fight. I shaved off my mohawk yesterday. I like this look, I remind myself of Natalie Portman when she was bald for V for Vendetta! I did it for my friend, and it benefits me not taking hours in the shower for once and letting my hair grow back healthy. It was a pretty easy decision, easier than I thought it was.Not only is it a symbol for my friend, but it helps my day to day life easier. Even if we are two different types of warriors, we were warriors battling on the same side none the less. Side by side, hand in hand. May she have found her peace, and give me strength, I have gained a warrior for a guardian angel. Anyways, I start MMS in two days. I'm going to prepare myself tomorrow for taking MMS and the extension kit. Gotta write out a new time and list on when to take my meds and food and map it out a bit. I'll let you know how that goes. I still seem to be gaining more and more weight. Im eating raw vegetables and eggs, with lots of fresh garlic cloves and spices in my salads. My salads are HUGE and I can really put food down like a bottomless pit. Still not able to get out of pajamas really, I just want to rest and stay in the house. But I'm starting to accept and get used to this, less freaked out and think more about fighting this! I ned to start posting my recipes weekly for desserts and baked goods, I've found green tea cookies and peppermint fudge to make. Plus other fun little treats for you guys. I've just been sooo sleepy lately. Purging always and non stop, I celebrate every "better out than in" moment. I'm not too itchy at all, but my skin on my face is a weird pigment and lots of pimples and little lesions. Hey, at least I have tons less itching! Feels great. Remarkable difference. |
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