Twiggy
6/13/2014
7:51:26 PM | Hey all,
I have been doing the same. Actually less hungry lately, I'm still eating three whole meals a day, but I find that I'm getting full a bit more easily. I think my body is starting to come out of starving mode from bulimia. I still have horrible water retention from it though, and don't quite look like myself.
I really want to come up with a solution for this ugly acne that's showing up in trails on my cheeks. I can't seem to find a truly organic formula that works. It really brings me down about myself. It just keeps getting worse.
Still purging, less and less noticeable but it has kicked up with this full moon tonight. That reminds me to double up on my roibus tea and other teas. Drinking lots of water.
I'm going to a physical on Monday to get into a Certified Nursing Class which only takes five weeks to complete. The class starts on the 30th, and I need a set of shots in order to get into the class. They're tuberculosis shots, I get the first one on monday and then the next one the following monday. I'm scared of what is in the shots and I feel like whatever vaccination or chemicals are in them are going to cause me to go back on my healing. I'm scared. Something I haven't felt in a while.
I really want to do this so I can start a decent paying job, to support myself with the protocol and moving out of this environment (my parents house). It's going to take a lot of saving up between the protocol, getting a new car, the diet, and saving up for rent. Kinda nervous but I'm glad I have a goal to make the months pass as I continue healing.
Who knows, maybe by the time I move out I'll have enough to buy a bowflex like Mel has. ;) Then I can become fit to pass a bit more time and feel pretty proud of myself! |
