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How I Cured Morgellons
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11/10/2014 4:26:01 PM | Hi everyone! I hope you are all well and on your way to recovery today! How are you all doing this week? I'm now starting week 9 of protocol and beginning week 4 (I'm at 6 drops, but cuz I speeded up by 1as I had no adverse reactions..) on my MMS. I have not exactly been a good and COMPLETELY sugar free girl this week. :( Wish I could boast! I can't. I have had serious setbacks and set myself back this week. I ate some sugars in a vegan restaurant on Halloween, and then some days after around full moon. Cacao, dates, berries, organic corns - all sweets but still yet no refined sugars- granolas even have 3-7g items here and there! :( I love and hate you Sage Bistro. Why IS this so hard for me? I really DO want to get well, heal completely and live tho it may not seem like it from my posts! Nov. 7th I was very depressed after days of crawling and just wrote Mel & gave up the protocol completely - my fiancée urged me back on it. He said he has really come to see that "we" are going to die if we don't do this correctly (his crawling has returned due to his slapdash-"rushed" to work dieting and not taking Thymic cuz he had no symptoms) I see from this that actually I have no choice but to be on this diet, if I want to stay somewhat even barely "functional". My crawling has increased 10 fold in the 2 days and burning skin returned INSTANTANEOUSLY. Saturday I broke down crying and admitted to everyone I cannot quit the sugar alone! I am an actual addict. :( This is like drugs for me, I don't know why I can't stop, but I need help. There is no SugarAnon 12 step for this. I have no sponsor. I feel I cannot do it because I am still faltering. Temptation, all the cleaning chores and food prepping alone. The vigilance w the plastic bed, the car, things I touch, being around sugar/dairy/carb eating kids all the time. I am overwhelmed and cravings are INTENSE! I can't watch anyone anywhere eat anymore etc. Simultaneous to this breakdown, the other day my fiancée had his worst symptom to date at work which stopped him from being able to walk, and The Lord told him stop doing this, you ARE going to die. So, I now have what they call "buy-in" from my fiancée and he is finally doing the plastic bags, cleaning w the KG and pills, food prepping on his own and looked at the site regarding the diet and oiling the body just as I was giving up He is 100% in and committed to getting me back on track. Also, thank you to Mary, Peter and Tee for your responses and continued encouragement!! i really need it this week! I feel like it is almost impossible to go on lately and the crawling is unbearable for me. I keep telling myself when I'm w/ the food, that I am only cheating myself and just making me worse, but I say this WHILE I am already eating bad! More and more I'm amazed by Twiggy's posts of never faltering with any sugar! Praise God tho thru this I am at least learning and intelligent enough to return instead of stubbornly go my own way! Praise God also I'm trying really hard to be consistent. I usually don't even want to make or prepare or eat any of the "tasteless" good for me food. After only 3 months I am feeling SICK of the cleaning routine. Also, its teaching me patience with myself and my fiancée through this whole process. I am constantly surrounded by sweets I want to eat so badly and I still have cravings I give into, but in reality, we are both becoming a little stronger toward saying "No" to others and me to myself. I am saying "No thank you, I cannot eat that" much more often. My fiancee reminded me that I have quit using drugs, alcohol, recently quit smoking on my own (7 months clean now) and none were overnight, I faltered and weened off over months, but I eventually stopped completely and lost the desire. He and my friends feel strongly that I am very strong person and can do it with the sugar. I guess sugar may be my last frontier?! Should I take 1 more Candida Rid on the extra craving days? Can I? Symptoms this week are heavier than last weeks localized crawling in the stomach/waist sides, shoulders, thighs, ear and my hands are back to burning/stinging. Today it feels like its everywhere again w/ the crawling-is this from the full moon or have I just completely messed up any healing by backsliding? I see my very short buzzed hair now sticking up in places, my scalp hurts some days and now has little bumps that I can feel, and I am getting random pimples -I hope these wont be lesions! grr I don't like it. Please just heal me God! ??. My energy is so so this week but was not super terrible. Rest is in order. One random day I had extreme stomach cramps out of nowhere and then it went away in like 2 hours. That ever happen to anyone? Tuesday the 4th and up til now was crazy crawly nights. Feels like a complete return to onset setback. Something about the crawling makes me suicidal. Ugh. It's my fault. I will try again to press on. This girl is def dragging her sword this week, but its back in my hand. Like Amber says in a post, I def see our need to drink even more water and add 1 wk workout to sweat out toxins! I had energy to record a song so I did that last week. Praise God I had the strength and energy performing it repeatedly for 2+ hours. Oh! A song that I love listening to that helps me through this some days is "Say amen". I've been thinking of you, wanting to share it w/ you all - good for NOT GIVING UP HOPE. http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VRcvcF_0_9M The lyrics are below. Sooo Powerful! Verse "This life is a journey we walk by faith And there will always be the mountains in our way But right here in this moment, may our strength be renewed As we recall what God has done and how we've seen Him move CHORUS If there's anybody here who's found Him faithful Anybody here who knows He's able - Say Amen. If there's anybody here who's seen His power Anybody here brought through the fire - Say Amen. Anybody here found joy in the middle of sorrow Just Say AMEN!" "Sometimes through the darkness, it's hard to see So just be brave and follow where He leads Greater is the one who's in us, than he who's in the world So child of God remember, the battle is the Lord's CHORUS Even in the valley of the shadow, when you feel alone in the unknown Just say Amen, Just say Amen Even when the storms are raging, Stand and know your not forsaken Just say Amen, Just say Amen." God willing this crawling leaves me! He is the healer! May The Lord comfort you and give you all peace, wisdom, strength and hope for today and this week, Shari |
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