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How I Cured Morgellons
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Monique 9/12/2013 2:05:08 PM MST | Hello Warrior Friends! Like others, I have experienced problems the last few weeks when trying to post. I've typed up a reply or update only for the screen to refresh on its own and give me a blank page. Everything I typed is gone. Mel, any ideas why this is happening? To get around this, I now type up my post in a draft email in yahoo, then copy and paste into the text box on the forum. So I am happy and totally calm today for the first time in 2 months, which is when herx symptoms started building. I wasn't sure whether to post this but I think it is important for others to know. Herx has been over for a month but I was still experiencing heightened emotions and barely controllable food cravings. REALLY bad cravings, as well as a fear of MMS I never had before. I didn't want to take it, hated it, was scared of it. However, I plugged along each week and went up my one drop, from 10 during herx to 14 now. Go up to 15 tomorrow. I believe I am nearing my max as I experience a little lightheadedness or fuzzy brain feeling right after drinking. Or is this normal.....? Anyone know? I have grown to love my curry stir fry over the past 5 months. Love love love it! BUT... for some reason in the past few weeks, I have developed a distaste for it, similar to the MMS. I keep eating it but start to think of how to change my diet. Yesterday, a calmness descended upon me. I now cheerfully take my MMS. I realize now that it was the beast trying to reassert control over me during my vulnerable time because it wants to be fed. It is dying and is pulling out all stops to try to trick me into doing bad things. We'll see how the food issues go. I have a feeling they will just disappear. I firmly believe it is not my body itself that doesn't want the curry dish. Yah, you guessed it. With the calmness and peace came a 100% drop in banned food cravings. It's just gone. I won this round baby and I am smiling from ear to ear! The emotional issue I'll just have to deal with. That is actually separate from this as I am dealing with a lot right now, from being so broke cuz I can't work that I can't pay utilities or mortgage, put gas in my car or buy my daughter a snowsuit and snowboots to siblings' fighting over my mom's estate, pilfering right and left. No quick fixes. Just deal, breathe and let go. All I can do for now. :-D I share this with everyone because we all go thru it at some time or another. It is how we fall off the wagon and have setbacks. We are doing so well, feel kinda normal then {boom} doubts creep in. 'Eat this. Eat that. Don't take protocol or MMS.' Try to shove those thoughts away. They are not yours. We ARE on the right track. We ARE winning this battle. I was wondering when the self-doubt would ease and it now has. Everything takes time. I am happy to have made it over this bump in the road. Perseverence everyone!! I thank God every day for Mel, this website and the foundation. Words can never express how grateful I am that Mel is paying it forward. I am crying tears of joy for having found you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, Mel. I pray for your recovery so you can continue to do God's work. What a blessing! Much love to all -- Monique |
Deborah B 9/10/2013 10:02:12 AM MST | Hi Monique, Wow. . . what great and inspiring post! You always amaze me! I find myself looking forward to calling you because I come away with brightened outlook, renewed hope and awesome respect for your positive attitude and can-do spirit. In your original post and then again later you ended by saying that there was 'nowhere to go but up' . . . well you certainly have proven that to be true and I have no doubt will continue to. Keep doing the absolutely amazing job that you are of following this protocol with faith, determination and a will to win the prize. You are encouraging the rest of us warriors as you push on toward complete healing. Thanks, Deborah B. PS. Looking forward to that bread recipe! ;-) |
Monique 9/7/2013 3:48:15 AM MST | Ah Peter! My guardian angel, my beacon of light shining so brightly thru the darkness. What a blessing it is to have you in my life. I remember all too well that morning you called after I prayed the night before for God to send someone to help me because I was so lost and alone and scared. My, how far I've come since then! I continue to take things one day at a time and those days have slowly turned into weeks, then months. I am on my way!! WHERE I'M AT: I will soon be entering my 6th month on the raw veggie diet (on the 11th) and basic protocol (on the 24th) and my 5th month on the extension kit and MMS (on the 24th). How time has flown! There have been ups and downs but mostly ups. The 1st big herx hit a month or so ago around the last full moon, made it thru with only minor setbacks (heightened emotions and cravings) and am back on track. Like Justin said in his 'Newbie here' thread, I'm still experiencing strong emotions and increased itching I hadn't experienced in a while. Knowing to expect these things makes them easier to tolerate until they subside. And subside they will, as I've read it here! I went up to 14 drops of MMS tonight. I know if I hadn't stayed at 10 drops while experiencing herx symptoms leading up to major herx and stabilizing after (about 4 weeks), I'd be at higher drops or maybe maxed out by now. I don't much care. It's not a competition to see how high a number of drops I can take. It's about my health and maintaining progress. After stabilizing at 11 drops after that, I resumed going up a drop each week. Am watching carefully for maxed out symptoms and am comfortqble taking MMS as I know it's doing its job and killing the bad guys. Slow and steady wins the race. SOME INSPIRATION: When in doubt, sit back, take a deep breath and just BREATHE! Listen to an inspiring song. If you're feeling overly emotional, let it out. I've been told tears are cleansing. They certainly cleanse MY soul. But don't let them overtake you for long. After a good cleansing, let it go. Take some deep breaths and push it back. Take control of your emotions and just LET IT GO! Let what is bothering you lift off your shoulders and drift away. You will be amazed at how free you feel when you give in and let go. It's easier to move on from there. I know. I've been there. From severe panic attacks to letting go and regaining control. It feels great! ABOUT DIET, ESPECIALLY FOR NEWBIES: Some people, like me, are on 'Peter's raw veggie diet' with or without slight modifications (my body needs more meat and carbs or starts shutting down) and are doing very well. Other people are on the Candida Diet, which is basically gluten free. Choose one and stick with it. Your body will tell you if it's working for you. If not, look at the recipes and see what else you may be able to have or ask in a post on here. I realized after a couple days of just raw veggies that I cannot live on raw veggies alone. I need hot sustenance and cook a curried meat and brown rice stir fry with lots of veggies on top, barely cooked. This works for me. I stayed on my basic diet with no new additions until recently when my body told me I was stable enough to branch out. While I've added brown rice pasta, oatmeal and blueberries to my diet (interestingly enough, I used to be allergic to oats. It's amazing what a good bioterrain cleanse will do for your system. Thanks John B!), I am hesitant to add a lot of other things I see in the Recipes section. One thing at a time til I know my body tolerates it with no symptoms. I recently made up a macaroni egg salad with chopped raw veggies added in. I am also working on a yeast free rising bread recipe and will post it as soon as it's perfected, as well as a sugar free fudge (Hershey's unsweetened cocoa powder is full of antioxidants). Recipes coming soon as I finally took the time to write them down. Oh happy day! Scrumptious food! Remember, we can all tweak any recipe if there's something in it we can't have. So long as it's not a naked little piece of cauliflower standing there by itself, I'm game! Welcome to all the new people I see posting and hello again to all my warrior friends. We're in it to win it and will continue to fight the good fight. There IS nowhere but up from here. God's love to all, Monique |
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