Peter
2/2/2016
3:32:41 AM |
Hi Paul
I wanted to respond to your post to lower your anxiety and calm any fear. Sometime around 8 months into my recovery I was doing really well. Then, out of nowhere, I was revisited with symptoms just as you are describing. I did not understand it then as I do now. It seems that many go through this.
I liken it to the 9th round of a 10 round boxing bout where your opponent has lost every round. His corner is telling him he has to knock you out to win. So, he comes out and throws everything he has left at you, in a last ditch effort to win. Of course, however, it is not enough to overcome you. He burns out quickly and surrenders the fight. That is a good analogy to describe what you are experiencing. It is what Mel means when he says you will get more sick before you get better.
Try to not be alarmed when symptoms return in this way. Instead, look for the symptoms to subside more quickly with each new episode. My journals tell me this happens every six months or so, maybe two or three times before reaching remission. The body is merely adjusting immune response as it evolves so that it can completely take over again. Stay the course. Even though it may not appear this way, you are actually winning!
Godspeed,
Peter |
