Vanessa
7/21/2018
9:31:39 AM | |  | |
I know I was led to this website by God for a reason. This community is family. I know that I can come here and experience love, support, no judgement.....and most of all I experience God in all of you. Thank you Jesus for leading me here.
Thanks so much, Karen, Leslie, Laura (aunt), Marie, Cheryl for your kind and beautiful words. Thanks for lifting me up and making me feel good about myself. It is such an important part of growth and moving forward and overcoming hurdles.
An update on this past week: It has been a great week. The feeling of foolishness and weakness lifted with many prayers, my talk with Mel and just the support of this group and some of my close friends. It's ironic how the storms in life bring about peace and healing.
A big part of healing social anxiety is to face a situation and even if it goes bad, to teach your brain that it's OK and give yourself a pat on the back for trying. This is exactly what my brain learnt last weekend. It was uncomfortable to begin at first, but as the weekend progressed, with the help of my friends, this community, Mel and God I was able to let go of my feelings of weakness and foolishness and move forward.
Not that I want a repeat performance of the episode, but it had to happen in order to move forward.
I like to this of myself in the 90% club as far as my social anxiety goes. There is further healing happening and I am moving to the 100% club..............but it will come with the usual herxes as I rid my brain of every last bit of negative pathway that it's holding on to.
Thanks so much to all of you for your love and support. Mel, my friend.......it is such a consolation to talk to you.
Thank you Lord for leading me here.
Love always
Vanessa |
