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How I Cured Morgellons
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2/8/2015 10:12:37 AM | Hey everyone! February already…this is one time that I’m glad that time moves so quickly. I’m glad because I feel that I’m rushing toward being done with this and living my life again amongst the living. I am already doing more things, but Christmas was tough in retrospect and I turned down the few Christmas party invites that I received. I wasn’t feeling that I could be amongst the regular folks, who would be eating and drinking without care. I think that if I was at where I am now, I could do it and have fun without feeling deprived or at least without the deprived feeling ruling my experience. So far on this journey, I’ve learned how to be self-sufficient especially in the area of cooking. I’m learning tasty, healthy recipes and finding more which makes me realize how poorly we ate before. I’d gotten to relying on premade food like at Trader Joes that heats up in the micro in a plastic dish…that can’t be too good. I also used to drive through Carls J and get a low carb six dollar burger. Maybe if I felt like splurging, some fried zucchini and whatever it is that they call ranch dressing to dip them in. That was before Carls J started using grassfed or organic beef or whatever they claim to be using now. So, I got my share of pink slime, I’m sure. :P I've also learned how to have fun without food/drink but just au natural. Keep my house cleaner than ever before. So many new things at this later time in my life. A friend’s husband died this past week, only in his 40’s. Kidney disease for many years. He left behind his wife and two daughters, one my son’s age (11). I’m so sad for them, though they were a family of faith so they know that they will be reunited someday. But still, so tough. So this has been a somber week. To go with it, I had a little tough time last weekend as for the first time in 6 months I offered my home to host my father-in-laws 87th birthday. My sister in law has been hosting everything since I got M as I had said my home wasn’t available. I didn’t want anyone possibly contracting this. In the beginning we told about M and the parents of my husband researched it and came up with the conclusion that it wasn’t contagious and probably not even real. At any rate, all these months, none of them have called to talk with me and see how I’m doing, offer their support, or ever asked me anything about it. Is that how they’d treat me if I had cancer? Lupus? MS? I’ve given that painful experience of being invalidated and uncared for to God as I want to forgive and love them. So, I host this dinner and make some of my new paleo recipes: coleslaw, dirty “rice” and my husband made the crab cakes. Yes, they had gluten and who knows what all, so I didn’t have any. I was quite content with the other two items, though. They all acted nice as usual. I did ask my father in law to please not sit in a chair I found him sitting in as it is the one I sit in all the time and I didn’t want him to risk getting this. He didn’t budge and laughed at me. A few days later I heard from my husband that his sister, parents and sister’s hubby all thought I was pretty out there and are worried for my son’s emotional health since I talked about it so much and because we wash everything all the time…. Uggh. I guess I was talking to them about something, but I can’t recall what. I thought I was just talking about my food /diet guidelines. I think I was forcing the topic on them since they weren’t asking and never ask or check in with me. I can’t believe they never ask. It is the weirdest phenomenon as these are typically very caring people. I think I was trying to break through their denial and make my illness real for them. It didn’t work. I guess I’m figuring out now, that they’ve been thinking I’m nuts and that’s why they aren’t reaching out with support. Anyway, I’m so glad that my own mom believes me. I cannot put into words how hurtful it is to me when family doesn’t believe me. I've never run across this before in my life. I think they are so ignorant and I have to let it go. But if they ever got M themselves, I really think they wouldn’t be able to cope with it. so better me than them. The only good I can do with this suffering is offer it up to Him to use for the benefit of others. Well, I need to get positive, so here’s some good news….my son and husband still seem to be symptom free. I don’t know if they ever had it and I don’t know if they have it inside of them and it will show later on. I saw that Nicole said her son Tyler got it a year after she got it. I hope I have that right, sorry if I don’t. But, when I learned that, I got nervous all over again. But, I just can’t think about it since I can’t control it. We still stay in separate rooms, separate chairs, separate laundry. So, I’m prayerful that it is working. I’ve been loving the sun and sitting out quite a bit in our 80 degree weather. It doesn’t seem to be bothering me and makes me feel good and relaxed! I think the Vitamine K/D has to be a good thing for the immune system. I’ve been working and energy and brain power is good. I’ve had break outs of these red welt-type bumps, usually just one here and there. They are itchy usually, so I know that I’m having it. They go away pretty quickly. A bunch on my back between the shoulder blades. And, the crawlies pretty minimal. However, they came back pretty good during this past full moon. Last full moon, nothing. This full moon, definitely an increase. So maybe next one, I will divide my MMS dose. I have the microfibers in the sheets each morning. Blue and black. Black specks. I don’t see them on my clothes at all during the day. Nothing seems to be in my scalp and hair is healthy though now about 5 inches of natural brown roots with it’s new grey tinge. Lovely :/ But, at least it is healthy. The back of my hands got really old and wrinkly for a few days/weeks and now that’s cleared up. And, I’ve had a few experiences of what I think some people describe as fiber glass in my skin. I thought of it as really dry skin that stings/burns when it’s so dry and it gets stretched by a movement. I put lotion on it and it felt better and then after a few days, those sensations stopped happening altogether. Peter would probably say it was deeper form of healing, and I like that so that’s what I’m sticking with. And, I think my eyesight is getting better and my focus and concentration. Bill or Peter, one of you said in our con call that your grey hairs reversed out. I’m looking forward to that happening to me too! ? So, I guess that is what’s going on with me here at the start of my 7th month on MMS. I’m looking forward, though, to being 100% and hope that I can beat Ellen’s record! I'm competitive by nature and can't help it, Mel. I'm still going slow and steady and no cheating. ? I continue to pray for all of us daily. And, that this will be eradicated from this earth altogether. God Bless Every One Mary |
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