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How I Cured Morgellons
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4/14/2015 5:11:47 PM | My thanks and gratitude to those on this site: Thank you to Mel and all the others for being here for me in this terrible time. I am so grateful for your friendship, advice, encouragement and your wisdom! I see God is working in my life through you. My first MMS bath: I have recently taken my first bath as I have just hit the 6 month mark, though I cheated, so technically I have just hit the 3rd month of beginning healing mark (I am on the protocol itself though for 6 months). I am behind in my healing because of backsliding with sugar - repeatedly. I still have crawling, specks and fibers, which this week seemed to be coming out a lot more. I have had MANY more headaches these last 2 weeks as well. I am at my maintenance dose of 20 drops MMS. Once beginning my max dose I immediately had set out to begin taking the baths. However, I have no bathtub. So I posted on FB begging for the use of a bathtub from anyone, anywhere. I finally got one. I have to say I was extremely nervous after someone finally said yes, I could use their bathtub. All kinds of new thoughts went through my mind. MAINLY “Ok, well what will I see? What is it going to FEEL like? What do I do now?” and “How do I protect them from me?” Thankfully I was able to reach out on my Whatsapp to Twiggy, Jeremy, Nicole and Kim. They were kind and walked me through it gently and with encouragement. “Take 20:20 drops MMS in the bath water." "Warm, hot, whatever is OK." "Just relax." "Try to stay in there longer than a normal bath and just let it flow.” “Don’t be afraid, you GOT THIS!” they had told me. “You are a warrior and a badass” they reminded me. Since I have a bug phobia and I am already often afraid with bugs in my house AND M, it was an EXTREMELY SCARY idea for me to even get INTO the bath. However, my need for continuing consistently on protocol and really wanting these things out of me, I took the plunge. Now I see WHY 6 months or max MMS dose is definitely the time to begin MMS bathing! I see Mel’s complete wisdom in that now! I got my things ready while texting and asking their advice. All the while FREAKING the hell OUT! As I rode in the car to her house, I was feeling so nervous. I realized I have not been this nervous in A VERY LONG TIME. I was afraid and started thinking of all I could see. What could happen to me in the bath? Maybe I shouldn't do this? Then something inside me welled up and clicked. "NO!" Just as I was not going to blame the Lord for my ailment, and made the switch to instead lean on His promises to heal me, I also decided in that moment I was not going to be afraid and let the enemy win! I have “NOT been given a spirit of fear, but of power, love and of a sound mind!” 2 Tim 1:7 "NO, ENEMY LIES!" It is like a muscle I believe I am building to fight against the enemy, albeit very slowly... I played a instrumental in my car that I am having a hard time working on and finding a melody to and started recording. It was insane! Words suddenly began to flow out of me. My intense nervousness and all my fear! I will sing about it! I just expressed it all right there in the car. Remembering the Word. All the fear and yet, the knowledge that I am a “conqueror”. The Word says I am EVEN “MORE THAN a conqueror” through He who saves. Romans 8:31-39. I am EVEN MORE! If God, is for me, what the hell can this do to me? No. I will not be afraid. I started singing “I am a conqueror!”. It felt good. I kept on going with lyrics just flowing; singing in my car loudly all the way to the bathtub. I picked up my fiancee from work (I wanted him to document everything that would come) said my hellos and made a bee line for the bathroom. Once inside I put on my meditation app and had put the 20:20 MMS mix in the cup just like I was informed. Let it mix. It smelled bad, but I think I am getting used to the smell a little more. I made the bath warm and poured it in after a couple minutes. Then I just... closed my eyes. I made sure the entire time to keep my eyes closed. In my heads and thoughts I was imagining terrible things coming out and I would just refocus - - to the Lord, to my breath, and to being in the moment of “cleansing my temple” as Twiggy said. I felt pricks and some sharp stings but stayed in and kept my eyes closed. Toward the end of the bath, were two VERY odd and uncomfortable feelings, in my back. I felt something go up my back (not down) and then a suction on my body. Kinda like the way you feel suction when you open your bathing suit in a pool/jacuzzi and let the water in and then let it out. I still remained with my eyes closed. I had my fiancee film the entire bath and capture any snapshot of what he may see. Some he did not want to tell me about, but just said “red things” “black things” etc. He doesn’t want to scare me. He just said "yep, it's working. These are like mine". After his came out of him months ago, he has no more crawlies or stings. At the end of 40 minutes in the bathtub, the timer went off and I got up, with closed eyes I high-fived Freeman that I made it through the bath and I stepped out. When I was out of the bath the little science nerd/documenter in me became curious to see what was inside. My fiancee had begun to empty it and I stopped him. I took a look with a flashlight. Where I was laying in the direction of where my back was to the tub there were 2 strange very long black haired things floating and around it were 3 shiny ameoba-- like things either attached or just near it. Having been a lover of Oceanography and my Biology classes, I recognized these shapes and recalled the beauty of looking at them through the microscope. For a minute I thought "wow, how beautiful." Then I remembered that I was not looking at something from afar. That came out of me & possibly out of my back! I also saw a thick black hairy wiry thing as well floating on the other side of the tub where my feet were and there was one lone plankton/amoeba looking organism without the long hair thing there as well. However, my awe changed to sadness that these things came from my body so I was not feeling particularly inspired. :( I then read the messages from everyone asking how it went and letting me know that they admired how far I have come. This was so wonderful to read. Thank you! I stopped for a moment to think about this and take it in. Yes! How far have I come?! I mean, I would NEVER have even considered doing this before. I would have been too afraid. I oiled myself up and put my clothes on. I felt clean. I cleaned my friends tub and bathroom and then walked out to the living room. I kissed my friends and thanked them profusely for their generosity. How kind of them to do that for me. My first MMS bath beingwas a success! Not so much in terms of purge (I don’t consider my 4 things coming out, out of millions in there to be “successful purging") but emotionally, wow, I really was able to overcome! I was a conqueror and an overcomer of my FEAR! I had my eyes closed. “BETTER OUT THAN IN”, I keep reminding myself. I believe I will be able to at some point even open these eyes in the bath! The more time that goes by and the more that I see I realize and now I know that I really DO want these buggers OUT! I’m reminded by Julian of Norwich’s written experience (a Catholic) with sorrow and joy. God is doing some things in my life right now not healing me yet, that I may not even be able to fully grasp, but I can kind of see them when I look really hard with a totally open mind. Words of Comfort “And God’s next showing was a supreme spiritual pleasure in my soul. I was filled with eternal certainty, strongly sustained, and without any tormenting fear. This feeling was so joyful and so inward that I felt completely peaceful and at rest as though there were nothing on earth that could hurt me. This only lasted for a while, and then my feeling was reversed and I was left to myself, oppressed, weary of my life, and so disgusted with myself that I could hardly bear to live. There was no comfort or ease for me but faith, hope, and love, and these I had in reality, but could not feel them in my heart. And immediately after this, our blessed Lord again gave me the spiritual rest and comfort, with certainty and pleasure so joyful and so powerful that no fear, no sorrow, no bodily pain that one might suffer could have distressed me. And then the sorrow was revealed to my consciousness again, first one, then the other, several times, I suppose about twenty times. And in the moments of joy I might have said with Saint Paul ‘Nothing shall separate me from the love of Christ.’ And in the same moments of sorrow I might have said with Peter ‘Lord save me, I perish.’ This vision was shown to me, as I understand it, because it is helpful for some souls to have such experiences, sometimes to be strengthened, sometimes to falter and be left by themselves. God wishes us to know that he safely protects us in both sorrow and joy equally. And to benefit his soul, a man is sometimes left to himself, though not always because of sin; for this time the changes were so sudden that I could not deserve by sinning to be left alone. Neither did I deserve the feeling of bliss. But our Lord gives generously when he so wishes and sometimes allows us sorrow; and both come from the same love. So it is God’s will that we should hold on to gladness with all our might, for bliss lasts eternally, and pain passes and shall vanish completely for those that are saved. And therefore it is not God’s will that we shall be guided by feelings of pain, grieving and mourning over them, but should quickly pass beyond them and remain in eternal joy.” Julian Of Norwich Revelations of Divine Love (The long text) |
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