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How I Cured Morgellons
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2/19/2017 4:06:08 PM | Hi KarenAnne, I'm sorry it has taken me so long to respond to your very kind post. Welcome to the site! I'm sort of feeling a little bit like less of a newby getting to say this to someone else! It made me so happy to read that my convoluted remarks made you smile. Humor has always been a huge part of my life, and for a while, when things got so scary, and before I became involved in this community, I'd lost all sense of it. After a while, the absurdity of some of the things I'm experiencing that we all go through finally made me start laughing at some of these things that no one on earth would believe unless they'd experienced it themselves. Now I'm starting to laugh at myself again...it's actually the only thing I CAN do when things get bad...especially when they got bad due to my own actions. Case in point...I did it AGAIN...cheated on my diet. I'd gone on a sugar bender at Christmas that lasted six days and thought for a while (because of the delayed reaction) that I'd maybe dodged the bullet. Uh...not...about two weeks later I had all the freakish skin reactions I thought I'd put behind me. During the looooooong hours I spent chained (again) to my dresser and make up mirror in painful exfoliation detail, I swore on everything sacred to me that I'd NEVER cheat again. This wasn't hard for me to do either...because I'm really very very disciplined about my diet...until I'm not...and one week ago, I went back into the land of "not." Suffice it to say it was due to a combination of weakness plus proximity and celebrating my birthday at a restaurant with friends. My sweet friends know I've been sick and can't have cake...but...they just couldn't see having a celebration without at least offering one. I knew they were going to do this and told them ahead of time that I was happy cake would be available for everyone else, but that I couldn't eat any. My plan was to just interact with the cake by blowing out the candles. Well...the cake was placed in front of me with the candles lit...and as I looked lovingly at it, I heard the words..."...if you go by HEB at 7:15 in the morning you can get cakes right out of the oven and they are just SO good...this one was picked up this morning." It was a tiramisu cake and just so scrumptious looking that I allowed the inner conversation to start in my head. That internal convo is the kiss of death for me...it goes something like...well...just one little piece...maybe I'm well enough to manage it...etc. So...I said...ok...just cut me one little piece. And that's when I went careening down the slippery slope of Sugar Mountain. It was good...I mean it was SO good...I was in heaven...and then the next words came..."I'm going to just have another piece." This time, I cut it...and it wasn't small. But it was SOOOOO incredibly good. I believe we all have our addictions of one type or another. Mine is sugar...and because of this, I should stay completely away from it even if M or Lyme disease wasn't a factor in my life. In any case, I ended up doing what I did at Christmas...I just turned into the equivalent of an out of control addict and it was full on eat anything I felt like for several days. The mentality behind this makes no sense to anyone with a rational mind, but it's a mentality I clung to out of pure denial. After the first day...or actually after the first bite... I was so horrified that I did it that I couldn't even let myself think about it. I was so scared...knowing I'm going to pay for this and pay big if things turn out like they did at Christmas. I emailed Mel and told on myself and asked him if there was anything I could take to lessen the effects. He mentioned taking an extra Candida Rid and I did. Interestingly, I haven't had any immediate symptoms at all from this binge fest...but...that was how it happened last time too...it's a delayed reaction. The more I thought about this, the more scared I became and I went into just give up mode and the binge kept going on "one more day" until it became a week. Mel called me on Wednesday or Thursday and I started telling him about this with all my excuses and he basically told me I needed to gut it up (my words) and get back on the program. Hard to hear...because I'm usually so incredibly disciplined about my eating and I don't like thinking of myself as weak. However...weak is what I was, and now I'm back in the saddle again. That was harder to do than it sounds because it required me coming out of my sugar induced hiding my head in the sand to face what I now know I'll quite probably face...the fallout in a week or so. Good news is I'm back at 100% now in all areas and have recommitted myself to doing what I'm supposed to do and what I'd been doing for well over a year minus my Christmas and birthday holiday binges. Nice to have a three day weekend...I've been cooking up a storm to have things ready to eat at any time. This is key for me to avoid making bad choices. I'm playing around with a pie recipe today, and if it turns out to be good, I'll send it to Mel to post. I'm crossing my fingers the fallout from this recent binge fest won't be bad...but that may be just more evidence of wishful thinking on my part. Since my Christmas binge, I'd added Colostrum to my protocol and that has helped so so much with my energy levels and brain fog. I think it's helped build up my immunity too because since I've been taking it, my skin condition has improved dramatically after I got through the fallout that happened in January from my Christmas sugar binge. I've read about the biofilm and "quorums" the four kinds of pathogens create to protect themselves from anything that might kill them...and I can feel this kind of biofilm on my skin. It feels like my skin texture is something synthetic...almost a nylon kind of feeling...and I can feel the little hard places under it. It's mostly in one area on my chin and I'm totally devoted to working on exfoliating it every day. I'm not sure if that's the best to do it every day...I've had this convo with Mel...but...after some experimentation, I've realized the every day system is actually helping, in my case, anyway. These pathogens are tricky...and they constantly reform and make new biofilm in an adjacent area once I'm able to get rid of a place by exfoliation. That has to be the most crazy making part of this...it's just full on war but I'm not giving up. I've continued this exfoliation routine even through my sugar binge days which is at least one positive thing I did during this time. I'm almost afraid to say this...but...my skin is just SO much better now. After weeks of exfoliation, I finally broke through an area and got down to the glitter and crystals. This is the most painful part coming through the skin, but it makes the most difference when I can get rid of it. Slowly, the "nylon / synthetic" feeling to my skin is starting to go away, and the hard places under my skin are becoming significantly fewer. Lol...I shared all of this when I talked to Mel and told him I was shaking in my shoes because I now wonder if my skin is better because all of the pathogens realized that there were "treats" on the inside of me because of all the sugar I've consumed and that I'm worried that they're inside of me having some kind of a pathogen sugar orgy and increasing their population by a thousand fold. Mel said that's a definite possibility, and so I now face God knows what kind of a reaction in the upcoming weeks. I'm praying the Colostrum got my immune system working well enough to circumvent this inevitable fallout...but...again...probably wishful thinking. There are really no excuses...but I have been dealing with way more than usual in terms of work load on my job and personally due to the terminal illness of an extended family member...which hasn't created any demand on my time but has been emotionally difficult. In life there's always "something" going on, and I need to learn to manage myself around sugar and not allow these things to derail me...so my next task on this journey is to create a contingency plan to manage myself during weak moments...and I think this will be best dealt with by having some "desserts" that are diet friendly always on hand. Well KarenAnne...I ended up making this thank you for your post and welcome to the site post about me me me...but I decided to go ahead and do an update on my journey while I was at it. So good that you're reading everything and learning as much as you can. I can tell you this much from my journey so far...listen to Mel...and do all the things he and the other members who have found success say to do. It actually works...amazingly well. You have much to look forward to...getting your life back is a definite reality...and how soon any of us get there is almost completely up to us and the many decisions we make every day. How wonderful to feel so empowered. Mel has charted the map and we just need to follow it. I look forward to when I can feel as well as I do at the moment every day (and I only feel great today because I'm the bomb that hasn't yet gone off due to my sugar binge)...but...feeling this great is so exciting...and helps me to remember what I used to always feel like. Can't wait for the day to come when this bad boy M is history. It'll happen for me because I'll get my weaknesses in hand, and it'll happen for you because you have found the right place. Please forgive my rambling...but I wanted to make sure to create a thorough update because I've been incognito for a while. Karen |
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