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How I Cured Morgellons
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| Original 11/20/2018 Post | |||||||
Nicholas 11/20/2018 11:18:14 PM |
Hi Family, Last week's conference was very special to me. I thought Cheryl did an amazing job. Many things she said resonated with me like reading journals by others around the same time frame of your journey. One thing Mel said also resonated with me. He said (and I'm paraphrasing) I call people in this community one of three things Warrior, Angel, or deceased. This really is a life or death struggle and that is the blunt truth. I had been doing well following the protocol closely and taking advice from the community. Changing my diet, managing stress, praising God and thanking Him for keeping me alive. One night, probably after days of heavy purging, I hit an emotional low. I'm sure at some point I thought I wasn't going to make it. I went in to my son's candy bag from Halloween and had a few "treats". I didn't notice much of a difference so I thought well maybe a little candy or cake now and then wouldn't be so bad. Heck , I may not be here for long anyway. I could convince myself that anything is a good idea- as long as I kept those thoughts inside so I didn't have repercussions from anyone who understood and actually cared. Of course, then I convinced myself to have a little cheese cake, then a few brownies, then more candy. Hey, They're fun size right? Well, the fun part was over as soon as the flavor went away. I found fibers had returned more black specs (which had almost disappeared). You see, the protocol works but it takes time. The problem is that the journey is so long and so hard that it's easy to give up hope. Some nights can be horrible with the stinging, biting. and purging. I was purging on my chin constantly for a week straight. It was so bad that I had lost feeling in that area for weeks. Then it moved to my neck again. Over and over -it seems relentless. It can bring your spirits down and that's what this disease wants! It wants to live- and if it lives, we must die. My stomach hurts so much sometimes that part of me wants to die. I have lost so much strength and stamina over the last two years that I don't even know who that other guy was. That's the emotional low that this disease wants. It wants us to feel hopeless and helpless so we feed it. Every day you are on this protocol it is dying and it doesn't die without a fight. This disease will fight you physically and mentally and that's why spirituality is paramount. I need that strength from my creator and this community. I need His love and guidance. I do not have a biblical quote here to insert but my community can probably think of a thousand. I literally think Mel will be at my door-step with his hockey stick. MEL SAYS (NO MY FRIEND, GOD BLESSED YOU TOO SHARE, IN THE HOPE OTHERS WOULD HEAD YOUR WORDS) I felt I had to write this in hopes that it stops someone else from making the same mistakes I have. I love you all, Warriors and Angels, Nicholas | ||||||
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Nicholas 11/25/2018 9:16:32 AM |
Thanks so much for the ideas Karen. I didn’t know there was a stomach rub. I’m not quite sure why I get them but I’m sure somehow it’s connected to MG. I thought maybe it was because I went too fast on the WPS drops. Sometimes I would be immobilized after taking my 8/8. Mel gave me a few days off to recover and knocked it down to 4/4. The strange part is when I decreased the WPS is when I had my biggest herx to date. It was constant and coming from the same spot endlessly. Then I had a two week remission which was like a gift from God. After that herx I had noticed the need for more rest and even with the rest a large decrease in energy. Also, I loved Chrissie’s suggestion for an afternoon bath. I found it very restorative and comforting. It’s strange how something so simple can be overlooked while your in the moment. Love, Nicholas | ||||||
Tracy 11/23/2018 9:33:22 AM |
Thank you Nicholas, For your transparency and honest heart!! You are courageous!! We do indeed need one another here, our journey is not easy, but together it sure strengthens each of us. Both Cheryl and Karen, as always, with such love and care, have given great advice that will not only help you but myself as well and everyone who reads this thread. I also have stomach issues and will be looking into the Tummy Rub from Rocky Mountain Oils (thank you, Karen!!) I hold you and your son in my prayers daily! Our Father is faithful!! Keep seeking Him and He will continue revealing Himself to you Nicholas!! In His love, Tracy | ||||||
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