Kathy
9/24/2010
6:24:16 PM | As a mother of 2 and grandmother of 4,I know what all of you are going thru.The fear of spreading this thing is far worse than having to deal with it day in and day out.I personally do not know how i would be able to live with the knowledge that I gave this to anyone.When I am at my younger daughter's home,my special needs granddaughter crawls onto my lap.This horrifies me.She is deaf and does not understand why I get up and move.My grandchildren and I have always been very close.Until 2 years ago,we all lived within 1 mile of each other.This child was born at 5 months and 1 week.She has shunts and had 9 brain surgeries by age 1.I love all of them,but this one does not understand why I can't hold her and do the things we used to do.I am confident that I will continue to improve.I have become semi stable at this point.The difference in my health now and 3 months ago is profound.
Coupled with the fear of spreading the disease or syndrome is the fact that others don't grasp the seriousness of being extremely cautious.My kids say if it was contagious they would have all contracted it before we saw evidence of what this was.Unfortunately,I had slept with the grandkids on different occassions.
I know we talk about their being o.k. as long as there immunity is not compromised.but as a nurse,I know that sometimes it is immpossible to know this until someone starts to show untoward symptoms.I have no answers on this.I am completely open to any one who has expertise in this area.
All I know is I am trusting God to see all of thru this.We are all in an unofficial club we never wanted to be in.We are sisters and brothers looking to God and each other to find the answers we need.I pray now that God will send us the person or persons with the knowledge and perserverance to find a cure for all of us.
God bless you all |
