Today was one of those rare days. I woke up and realized I felt better...so much better.
I felt energetic...enthusiastic...and the area of biofilm I've been battling for so long has started to flatten out and disappear.
Like all of us...I do believe I'll get completely well. I'm at 90%...but it just takes so long with this disease that sometimes it's easy to forget what that feels like...then...one magical moment comes and there is a light that shines so completely on the goal that it is impossible to ignore.
It's hard to describe the feeling of euphoria that this has brought to me. It's like finally coming to accept that life will never again be the way it was and then waking up one morning and realizing that...there it is...that old feeling...that feeling of forward looking hope for normal things...like fun with family and friends...love, laughter and joy without the constant fear of everything we with MD carry with us daily.
Then a thought came to me. A scene from a popular movie from several years ago...The "Shawshank Redemption." I've often thought that the path to wellness was not unlike the main character's task he'd set forth for himself to build a tunnel out of the prison...having to dispose of the dirt he'd dug out in tiny increments in the cuffs of his pants on the exercise yard daily.
He didn't give up though...and in the end he and Morgan Freeman were enjoying the beach with sun on their faces.
That's a hard thing to keep in your heart though when the going seems so long...to keep up the faith...but, to me, the scene from the movie where the main character plays the opera song and puts it on the prison PA captures the essence of how hope remembered feels...and it's how I feel today.
I'm including a link to that scene that I found on Youtube. I'm not sure if it will upload on this forum post, but I'll also email it to Mel to see if he'll include it if it doesn't come up as a hot link.
