Thank you for the kind words. Poetry helped me get through so many dark times. The most profound moment for me during this journey was when I really decided to listen for God's voice. I kept praying and asking what do you want me to do? That is when I felt him saying "I died for you, so please live for me"
In some way we need to remember what Christ endured for us in order to give us eternal life. It is very difficult and you may never really understand his full purpose for you. But be encouraged that you were led here and he will see you through.
I pray for you to completely overcome this disease and move forward with your life in Christ.